Adam

Fifth period everyday, I spend almost an hour sitting behind the screen of a computer working on my typing skills. Oh what fun. But really, we just wrote letters to our favorite celebrity and guess who I wrote to!

No, not Taylor Lautner orJustin Bieber. I wrote to Adam Brody (pictured above). I wonder if I will get anything back in the mail. We shall see.

Poetry from the good times

I came across some old poems I wrote in middle school. Here they are. They are all pretty lame but I got a little laugh out of it.

Candy
Candy if the best kind of food,
If you don’t share everyone will call you rude.
So you give it away,
And it’s all gone for the day.
You start to cry,
And say “Oh my!”.
Tomorrow you buy some more,
but you drop it on the floor.

Hair
He lost his hair,
And thought it wasn’t fair.
He bought something to help it grow,
He wanted his hair to go down to his toe.But it didn’t grow

McDonalds
With my burger I had some fries,
Saying they have no fat and calories are all just lies.
I finished my meal with a drink,
Which really got me start to think.
I walked outside the door,
And suddenly realized I wanted some more.
But I didn’t want to munch,
Because I had already eaten my lunch.

My New Home

"You can tell more about a person

by what he says about others
than you can by what others say about him. "

Audrey Hepburn

It's been a long two days. I just got back from visiting the University of Vermont. I was nervous that it would be the same as Pitt and I wouldn't be crazy about it. Unlike Pitt, I fell in love with the university the moment I got there. The campus, the town, the programs-- everything. It's perfect (for now). I'm really excited that I finally found my new home for the next four years.

Say "I can!"

"When you say, "I can't" and expect the worst,
you become weak and unhappy.

When you say "I can", and expect success,
you fill yourself with confidence and happiness."

Currently I am sitting in a hotel room waiting. Waiting. Waiting for the snow to stop, waiting to eat breakfast, and waiting to visit the University of Vermont.

When we arrived last night, it was flurrying and starting to accumulate on the ground. This morning when I woke up and glanced out the window, I was surprised to see at least three inches of snow covering everything.

I love snow, but I did not pack clothing that goes well with snow. A light coat, a flimsy t-shirt, jeans, and a pair of flats. Not the worst, but not the most ideal either. Hopefully most of the tour and what not will be inside and they will give me hot chocolate. Okay, I probably will have to buy the hot chocolate but I still want to drink some.

Despite this clothing malfunction, I'm still excited to see the campus.

Thunder and Lightning

"Let the rain kiss you.

Let the rain beat upon your head

with silver liquid drops.

Let the rain sing you a lullaby."

Langston Hughes

There's nothing better some days then a great thunderstorm. The booming sound of thunder and the flash of lightening in the sky. There's something soothing about it all. Currently, it is storming a little. On a day like today, where I felt kind of down, it made me calm and feel better. And, it made me want to blog. What a great thing this storm is.

relationships are like sand

“Relationships-of all kinds are like sand held in your hand.

Held loosely, with an open hand, the sand remains where it is.

The minute you close your hand and squeeze tightly to hold on,

the sand trickles through your fingers.

You may hold onto some of it,

but most will be spilled.

A relationship is like that.

Held loosely,

with respect and freedom for the other person,

it is likely to remain intact.

But hold too tightly, too possessively,

and the relationship slips away and is lost.”

In relationships, sometimes one person becomes very attached and clingy. When the other person does not respond the same way, things often can get ugly. Freedom is a part of any relationship. No one wants to be a in cage, not allowed to do anything. I see this all the time in high school. Two people are dating and the one person in the relationship has to know exactly what the other person is doing, thinking, and saying at all times. They have to hang out every minute. I feel like that would be exhausting. Personally, I enjoy having time to myself. A good book, music, a bike ride- I like to do these things alone so that I have time to reflect on my day. I want to have independence, but I want to be interconnected with other people too. I want the best of both worlds.

My job for us all: Give people in your life independence but stay close at the same time.

Winnie the Pooh

“Promise me you'll always remember:

You're braver than you believe,

and stronger than you seem,

and smarter than you think. "

Christopher Robin to Pooh

Blogs

Sometimes I like blogging.

It's a good way to vent my feelings.

BUT.

Sometimes I hate it.

I feel like I'm talking to myself.

And that if anyone actually reads this they think its very shallow.

I have been blogging for a couple months and it's really like anything else.

Sometimes I grab my laptop and start writing without any problems.

Other times I stare at my laptop thinking, "I should do a blog."

I wish there was a way to motivate myself to do blogs, and other homework.

I have a disease.

It's called senioritis.

The cure: I have no idea.

I keep typing but nothing is really coming out.

Maybe this means I should stop?

Days Go By

Here's a little Keith Urban about life and everyday passing. I love this song.

I'm changing lanes and talkin' on the phone
Drivin' way too fast.
And the interstate's jammed with gunners like me
Afraid of comin' in last.
But somewhere in the race we run,
We're coming undone.

And days go by.
I can feel 'em flyin'
Like a hand out the window in the wind.
The cars go by.
Yeah it's all we've been given,
So you better start livin' right now
'Cause days go by.
Oh and a woo-hoo.


Out on the roof just the other night
I watched the world flash by,
Headlights, taillights,
Running through a river of neon signs.
Mmm-hmmm.
But somewhere in the rush I felt,
We're losing ourselves.

And days go by.
I can feel 'em flyin'
Like a hand out the window in the wind.
The cars go by.
Yeah it's all we've been given,
So you better start livin' right now,
And days go by.
Oh and a woo-hoo.
Yeah, the days go by.
Oh and a woo-hoo!


We think about tomorrow then it slips away.
Oh, yes, it does.
We talk about forever but we've only got today.

And the days go by.
I can feel 'em flyin'
Like a hand out the window as the cars go by.
Yeah it's all we've been given,
So you better start livin',
You better start livin',
Better start livin' right now!


'Cause days go by.
I can feel 'em flyin'
Like a hand out the window in the wind.
The cars go by.
Yeah it's all we've been given,
So you better start livin' right now.
'Cause days go by.
Oh and a woo-hoo.
Yeah, these days go by.
Oh and a woo-hooo!

Oh!
So take 'em by the hand,
They're yours and mine.
Take 'em by the hand,
And live your life.
Take 'em by the hand,
Don't let 'em all fly by!

Come on, Come on now.
Yeah!
Come on now!
Oh and a woo-hooo!
Don't you know the days go by.

what is real life

I ultimately blame movies and tv.

This is the story I see over and over:

Girl has problems.

Meets a guy.

The two slowly fall in love.

Hardships.

They end up together in the end.

The guy is totally sweet and perfect.

Often there are conflicts though (bad boy, different group of friends, start off an enemies, conflicting interests...) that give slight variations to this general idea.

Now who hasn't seen a movie based on this. I watch this kind of movies all the time; it's called a chick flick. I feel as though these movies have made girls develop a distorted view of boys and life. That in the end, the bad boy will change his ways for you and that there will be a happy ending, including the cliche of a sunset in the background. I hate to admit to it, but I still hope for this happy ending in the back of my mind. Don't we all. We all want that last scene of the movie where you can only imagine the best for the rest of their lives. I want to think that somewhere, there is a guy that I will spend the rest of my life with, but I don't want to be naive.

Real life is not the movies. Guys are not perfect. Relationships are messy; feelings get involved and often one person is left heart-broken. People lie, it's inevitable.

This whole rant is making me feel like a cynic, and I do not want to think that way. But, when I feel disappointed about a guy and I think about how I view perfect relationships I have realized that many of my expectations are not even from real life.

My job for us: Stop taking movies and television for real life. Real life is not the same.

You belong to me

Paul: I love you.

Holly: So what.

Paul: So what? So plenty! I love you, you belong to me!

Holly: [tearfully] No. People don't belong to people.

Paul: Of course they do!

Holly: I'll never let anybody put me in a cage.

Paul: I don't want to put you in a cage, I want to love you!

Breakfast at Tiffany's

I just spent my morning at University of Pittsburgh. It didn't exactly "click" the way that I always thought it would. Maybe it was the rainy weather, or maybe it was my high expectations, but I didn't fall in love with the school. This makes me a little nervous. I guess visiting University of Vermont Wednesday will help.

On another note, I watched Breakfast at Tiffany's this afternoon. I loved the movie the minute I started watching. Okay, maybe that is an exaggeration, but it is one of my favorite movies now. Now I'm on a mission to watch all of Audrey Hepburn's movies, and movies of the same time period. I want a man to love me the way that Paul does in Breakfast at Tiffany's despite Holly's refusal. Is that too high of expectations? I would say probably yes.

Here's to the future

"Breathe.

Let go.

And remind yourself that this very moment

is the only one you know you have for sure."

Oprah Winfrey

It's Friday.. finally. I felt like this week took a long time to finish. But, it is almost the weekend now! Tomorrow, I am on my way to visit The University of Pittsburg for a college visit. I am pretty excited because it is in my top two choices. I hope that this visit will make it clear where I will spend the next couple years of my life.

I often spend time thinking about how this decision will be life changing. I feel that if I pick the wrong one, my life will be ruined. But, as Oprah says above, this moment in life is the only one that I know I have. Therefore, I should not let this stress me out so much. Everything will fall into place.

Eventually.

My job for you: Spend less time worrying about what is to come, and more time focused on making each moment you have special.

Fashion is

Fashion is not something that exists in dresses only.

Fashion is the sky,

in the street,

fashion has to do with ideas,

the way we live,

what is happening.

Coco Chanel

Treasure each day

"Not to live for the day, that would be materialistic--

but to treasure the day.

I realize that most of us live on the skin--

on the surface--

without appreciating just how wonderful it is to simply be alive."

Audrey Hepburn

Read and watch

"It's that wonderful old-fashioned idea that

other come first and you come second.

This was the whole ethic by which I was brought up.

Others matter more than you do, so don't fuss, dear; get on with it."

Audrey Hepburn

This morning something great happened. I was given a copy of Breakfast at Tiffany's and Charade to watch this weekend. Since I do not own any Audrey Hepburn movies, I am extremely excited to watch them.

Also, I was given a couple books to read too. I haven't spent nearly enough time reading for leisure lately, and it makes me sad. There is not much thats better than the crisp sound of turning the page to an old book, or becoming aquainted with new characters.

You are what you dwell on

"I know for sure that what we dwell on is who we become."

Oprah Winfrey

It's Sunday.

Most Sundays I spend the day thinking about how I don't want to go to school

Well here it is: I do not want to go to school tomorrow.

I am wasting the last few hours of my weekend thinking about how I don't want school to come.

What a waste.

Oprah is right.

We are what we dwell on.

I need to stop complaining.

My job for myself: Stop dwelling on small stuff.

Sugar Cookies

I just tried to make sugar cookies and they definitely did not turn out right.

They look like wrinkled pieces of paper.

I'm kind of upset.

I mean not upset, just disappointed.

UVM

Next Wednesday at 10:00 I will be hours away in Vermont! I just scheduled a visit to the University of Vermont. I am pretty excited.

This weekend I visit Pitt. It will be interesting to see which school I end up choosing.

I'm kind of nervous about finally making the decision, but I know its time.

One Fine Wire

Colbie Calliet

I try so many times

but it's not taking me

and it seems so long ago

that I used to believe

and I'm so lost inside of my head

and crazy

but I cant get out of it

I'm just stumbling

And I'm juggling all the thoughts in my head

I'm juggling and my fears on fire

but I'm listening as it evolves in my head

I'm balancing on one fine wire

And I remember the time my balance was fine

and I was just walking on one fine wire

I remember the time my balance was fine

and I was just walking on one fine wire

but It's frayed at both the ends

and I'm slow unraveling

Life plays so many games inside of me

and I've had some distant cries, following

and their entwined between the night and sun beams

I wish I were free from this pain in me

And I'm juggling all the thoughts in my head

I'm juggling and my fears on fire

but I'm listening as it evolves in my head

I'm balancing on one fine wire

And I remember the time my balance was fine

and I was just walking on one fine wire

I remember the time my balance was fine

and I was just walking on one fine wire

but it's frayed at both the ends

and I'm slow unraveling

And I'm juggling all the thoughts in my head

I'm juggling and my fears on fire

but I'm listening as it evolves in my head

I'm balancing on one fine wire.

This song is actually kind of depressing. I was listening to music and this song came on and I decided to look the lyrics up. I was surprised to see how sad it was. It seems like a song to listen to when you're having a time in your life when you feel lost and confused. I think that this is pretty easy for almost anyone to relate to. Especially us seniors heading off to college next year. We have no idea where we are headed and we have to be careful with our decisions because they will influence the rest of our lives.

What I'm listening to..

1. Believe- Runner Runner

2. Black or White- Michael Jackson

3. Too Hot- Kool and the Gang

4. Shh- Frou Frou

5. Feelings Show- Colbie Calliet

6. Want to- The Almost

7. Hold the Line- Toto

8. Everything is Everything- Phoenix

9. Let Your Love Grow Tall- Passion Pit

10. Cold As Ice- Foreigner

11. Fall Back- DL Incognito

12. Expo '86- Death Cab for Cutie

13. Above and Below- The Bravery

Music is what feelings sound like.

Ina Garten

"Food is not about impressing people. It's about making them feel comfortable."
Ina Garten

Years ago, I started watching the Food Network. It became an obsession. There was nothing I wanted to watch more than grilling food, caramelizing onions, and cutting vegetables to make something that looks fantastic. One of my favorites to watch was the Barefoot Contessa with Ina Garten. I remember coming home from school freshman year in high school and watching her cook up anything from a fruit tart to zucchini couscous. She often showed how to decorate the table properly and just is so friendly, you can't help wanting to be her friend. Not only is her cooking phenomenal, her house is gorgeous. I enjoy watching her a lot.

My job for you: Watch a cooking show, or find an unusual recipe and play chef in your own kitchen.

I don't want to

work on bio

write blogs

clean my room

finish english homework

Guess I better get to work

Looking without seeing

"The greatest mistake you can make in life is to be continually fearing you will make one."

Elbert Hubbard

I am writing this post with my keyboaed covered by a piece of paper. The paper covers thkeyboard and fingers to test our keyboading skills. It is all about trusting our own skill ability. This is a regular exercise for class. We are testing efficiency without relying on a vackspace button to delete errors.

Okay, I took the paper away but, the activity made me think a little bit about life. It applies to life in a way. So easily, we go through life hesitantly, looking for ways to "cheat" and assuming that we will have a way to delete our errors the way that a backspace button does. Because life does not have a backspace button, it is important to "proof read" things. What I'm trying to say is that we should all try to make wise decisions because you can't get rid of every mistake in life.

My job for us all: THINK before you act, but do not let your fear of making mistakes hold you back.

Keep Climbing

"You don't make progress by standing on the sidelines, whimpering and complaining. You make progress by implementing ideas."

Shirley Chisholm

I need something to pick up my bad mood. Yeah, I know that being in a bad mood is a choice. You're probably thinking, well then decide to be happy. Its not that easy.

Don't we all have those days where you feel generally unhappy for no apparent reason? Today is one of those for me. Keep climbing no matter what and eventually a better mood is attainable. Yeah i'm still hanging on today, but I want to take a rest. I feel bad complaining on here, but I just need to clear all my frustrations and then I will move forward.

We spent a few minutes during my Journalism class today just speaking up about our frustrations with high school. All of us complained about things that our teacher had no control over and took our frustration out on her. It was not right. High school and rules are frustrating, but I understand why we need them. Structure is important to have stability. It is the same driving. There are speed limits to keep people safe and have stable driving environments. If you break the law, there is a chance you will be caught and punished. High school is the same. We need to all take a minute and look at things in the perspective of authority figures.

My job for you today: Instead of complaining, think of a way to fix one of your frustrations.

NYC trip images

I wish I could stop ranting..

I'm a senior. This means a lot of things. You would think that it would mean added responsibility and maturity, but in reality, it does not.



Many of my peers spend their weekends partying. Drugs, alcohol and other kinds of bad behavior are a regular part of their life. "But you're only young once," many say. Yes this is true, but I believe Eleanor Roosevelt said it best when she said,

"Learn from the mistakes of others.

You can't live long eough to make them all yourself."

Yeah I like to have a good time, but I don't need to be under the influence of anything to do that. I actually think its sad that so many kids can't have fun without drugs and alcohol.

A lot of my close friends are in this categry of partiers. I know that it is ultimately their decision, but I still don't agree with it. I feel out of place because I don't want to do these things. My parents always tell me "Oh you're just more mature. It's a good thing." But what fun is being the only one when all of your friends are out and about without you. I would never let this "left out" feeling lead me to drink or use drugs, but it is just disappointing when good friends want to party instead of hang out with me.

I just don't understand. For instance, a girl in the senior class had alcohol posioning last weekend and it really scared everyone with her. I was told by one girl there that she was soo scared to party again. This morning in the hall however, I heard her say she didn't want to be the designated driver again. Great.

I wish I wouldn't rant about this so much because I know that it is a never-ending battle. I just miss days where having fun meant going outside to play, or going rollerskating. Here is a list of how to have fun, the real way.

1. Go glow bowling on a friday night with a fun group of friends.

2. Have a dinner and a movie night. Get some fresh pizza dough and make pizzas with crazy toppings on them. Then watch a silly movie with it.

3. Go to the batting cages. I did this last weekend and it was actually fun. And then go get ice cream like you just won your baseball game.

4. Make something sparkle. Coer converse in sequins, or bedazzle a headband. Something to add a little fun!

5. Have a campfire. Cookout, and sing songs and just talk.

6. Slip-n-slide. This is great once its warm. Warning: do not try to use vegetable oil on it. It is not as great of and idea as it sounds.

7. Plan a trip somewhere. Hershey Park, a bus trip to New York, a local park-- anything really.

8. Try a new type of resturant. Indian, Thai, Vietamese or just somewhere new.

9. Play outside games. Capture the flag, flashlight tag, Manhunt, boce ball, crochet or even volleyball.

10. Go to a diner and order lots of delicious fried food and pancakes and just hang out with friends.

11. Laser tag

There are like 439820398402398409238049 other things to do but those are just a few ideas.

Carly

Carly. That's my sister. Her and I have had a lot of good times along with some rough times. But, she has gone through so much with me, and I love having her as an older sister. We love music. We're always listening to it, singing, playing singstar..you name it. I was flipping through itunes and realized how music reminds me of people and places all the time. Here's a little list for you Carly, of all the songs we have loved, hated, and sang together.

1. The Call Out- Hit The Lights

There's a part at the beginning that we always tried to say in one breath and finally could!

2. The Snake Song- Billy Gilman

Carly and I loved Billy's country music. It was just too good. We knew every song. This was one of our favorites to sing together.

3. As If- Blaque

This song was on the original Bring It On. We watched that movie so much. Its actually ridiculous.

4. How's It Going to Be- Third Eye Blind

Now talk about a story. One day my mother wanted us to find a song for her. Problem was, she didn't know what it was called, who it was by, or even how it went. Somehow, we found it. It was truly a funny and bizarre situation.

5. War In Your Bedroom- A Change of Pace

We had so many conversations based around this song. She thought I didn't know what it was about, when in reality its obvious.

6. Stand Up- Ludacris

I remember being on vacation with my family when this song was popular. Carly and I of course made up a dance to it.

7. Mrs. Robinson- Simon & Garfunkle

Car went through a major Simon and Garfunkle phase two summers ago.

8. We Shall Be Free- Garth Brooks

Oh Garth.. I remember Carly making me listen to his music all the time. I hated it at first, but I hate to admit, he grew on me. This was my favorite.

9. Cute Without the E- Taking Back Sunday

She used to/still does sing this song ALL THE TIME.

10. Wondering- Good Charlotte

We loved them.

11. Temperature- Seam Paul

Airplane. This song. Carly dancing. Enough said

12. Chicago is so two years ago- Fall Out Boy

We were in a Chicago airport for hours and this song came on. We thought it was perfect.

13. Luckie St.- Cartel

Another one of our favorite bands. This cd was always playing in the car when we went anywhere.

14. Crushcrushscrush- Paramore

Okay. I always find songs I really like. Carly starts listening to them. She makes us play them until I hate them. This is one. I refuse to listen to it with her. I refer to it as one of the songs "you ruined". ha

15. Black Cat- Mayday Parade

We sang this a lot.

16. Jude Law and a Semester Abroad- Brand New

Not sure why, but it reminds me of her.

17. Over You-Acceptance

We actually had a huge fight over this song. Long story, but I got punched at one point.

18. Band-Cellophane Girl- Graham Colton

Carly gave me this song a couple months ago. Its fantastic.

19. Anastasi Soundtrack

We sang these songs together. Especially At the Beginning.

I love my sister!

Soundtrack to my childhood

Have you ever been somewhere and suddenly a song comes on and it reminds you of your childhood? I love those moments. Here's a little list I compiled of songs that remind me of being a kid because my parents played them around the house and what not.

1. Tainted Love- Soft Cell

They played this song at the playground that I went to when I was in elementary school. Good stuff

2. Your Wildest Dreams- The Moody Blues

I remember listening to this song on the way to the Outer Banks in the car with my mom.

3. Return to Pooh Corner- Kenny Loggins

I can honestly say that I love this song. It hits home and makes me long for those days of being a little kid.

4. Tusk- Fleetwood Mac

This was my FAVORITE song as a kid. My mom always tells a story about this song. Story goes that we were at the library and all the kindergarden kids (including myself) went around a circle saying their favorite song. All of the kids were along the lines of The Itsy Bitsy Spider or the Barney theme song. But not little Katie Hinish. I proudly said "Tusk! by Fleetwood Mac" and all of the parents stared at me and my mother.

5. Staying Alive- Bee Gees

I remember my sister and I loving this song. We would try to sing just like them, but often just sounded ridiculous.

6. Copperline- James Taylor

Anything by James Taylor reminds me of being a kid. My dad was always playing his music during car rides and my sister and I would pick our favorites.

Music is in the air

Ten songs I currently like a lot

1. Crazy- Alanis Morisette

2. Shut Your Eyes- Snow Patrol

3. Feelings Show-Colbie Calliet

4. Day Light- Coldplay

5. Heartbreak Warfare- John Mayer

6. Good Ol' Fashioned Nightmare- Matt & Kim

7. Scarborough Fair- Simon and Garfunkle

8. Traffic In the Sky- Jack Johnson

9. Fool to Think- Dave Matthews Band

10. Always- Blink 182

"I love people who make me laugh. I honestly think it's the thing I like most, to laugh. It cures a multitude of ills. It's probably the most important thing in a person."

Audrey Hepburn

Golf, fishing, and picnics

"Laugh until your cheeks hurt"

Five things I want to do soon...

1. Go fishing. I have never done this and I just really want to. I am picturing sitting in a canoe in the middle of a stream and just relaxing all day.

2. Mini golf. My dad used to take me mini golfing all the time when I was little. It brings back good memories of being a kid.

3. Go to an auction. I am fascinated by anything old so I would love to go to one just to see everything.

4. Have a picnic in the woods. I'm talking wooden basket full of goodies with a checkered picnic cloth/blanket and all.

5. Go to New York City on the china bus and spend the entire day in the city wandering into small shops and cafes, just enjoying the city and whatever it may bring.

My job for you: Do something silly, or fun!

A word is not dead

"Great minds discuss ideas; Average minds discuss events; Small minds discuss people."

Eleanor Roosevelt

Alright you have all been in this situation. You are either with a group of people or just a friend. A nice conversation is going on and all of a sudden the topic turns to another person. "Did you hear that so and so did this?"

Thats it. You've entered into a dead end street. You have two choices turn around drive away fast or continue into a direction of no return.

What I'm saying is, you can either join in with the other person, or you can end the bashing. Many people feel uncomfortable sticking up for the person or telling the person talking to stop, but this "fear" needs to be overcome.

Now put yourself in this situation. You have just found out terrible things that a close friend has been saying behind your back. That aching pain in the pit of your stomach is just the beginning. It makes you upset or mad and makes you start to lose trust in that friend. This is why we all need to take a moment or two and think before we talk. Once you say something, its out in the open to be repeated. As Emily Dickenson one poem goes:

A word is dead

When it is said,

Some say.

I say it just

Begins to live

That day.

Basically this poem is saying, once you say something you can never take it back. So think about how you would feel if the same things were being said about you. If you think it would be upsetting, its probably not something you should say outloud.

My job for all of us: Try not to speak rude words about others, instead, give out compliments and smiles.

Forty days

"Try to keep smiling. Get a little rock and roll on the radio, and go toward all the life there is with all the belief you can find and all the truth you can muster. Be true. Be brave. Stand. All the rest is darkness."

Stephen King's IT

There are forty days left of my high school career. I can't decide if I'm excited, scared, or upset. It's probably safe to say that its a mixture of all three. For myself, high school is stability. Having my parents around to provide anything I need. Once I go to college, sure I will not be living on my own, but it's one step closer to complete responsibility. That scares me.

Friends are a big part of general happiness. I love all of my friends and come fall, we will all be off to start on our new journeys, alone. There will be no more hanging out everyday after school. No more trips to Hershey Park during school and getting caught by all the teachers. I will miss all of my friends so much. I know that college will bring on a new group of friends, but its hard to just leave the old ones behind.

Singing is another part of high school that was really shaped my personality. It has helped me to become confident, and to be accountable for what is expected. Choir, ensemble, festival choirs, and singing at basketball games are just a few groups I participated in. It will be strange to not be singing music with the same group of people I have been singing with since sixth grade. I know that music will always be a strong area of interest in my life, but I also know that it will never be quite the same as it has been in high school.

My job for myself: Enjoy all of the last parts of high school and prepare myself for the next journey I am about to take.

Dream vs. Reality

"Here's to the crazy ones, the misfits, the rebels, the troublemakers, the round pegs in a square hole, the ones who see things differently. They're not fond of rules, and they have no respect for the status quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them. About the only thing you can't do is ignore them, because they change things. They push the human race forward, and while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius, because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, and are the ones who'll do it."

Apple Computer tv ad

This weekend I got to spend a day in New York City. While I was there I went into the Apple store. Because of all the new "ipad" craze, there were dozens of ipads out to try. It was crazy to think about all the progress made technologically in just the past year. I try to think about all the new inventions of my lifetime, and its hard to say what is merely a dream and what will actually become reality.

My job for you: Dream big. Dreams become reality.

I'm sick of

I'm sick of..

Girls letting guys treat them horrible

School

Homework

People who blow off plans last minute

People who ignore me out of nowhere

Instigators

Anyone who makes up lies for no reason

Fanpages on facebook

How expensive clothes are

Pop tab

"I don't design clothes. I design dreams."

Ralph Lauren

I saw this pop tab bracelet one day just browsing the internet. Although it's made of soda pop tabs, I thought it was pretty interesting. I want this bracelet. However, when I looked to buy it, I couldn't.

The only solution: Make my own!

So I looked online and found steps to make a pop tab bracelet. It is much more simple than the one pictured above, but I figured I would start with an easier version and work my way to the more complicated bracelet.

Dear Eye

Dear Eye,

I do not understand what happened. Why did I wake up four nights ago with an extremely swollen eye? Did You get bit by a spider while I was sleeping, or get stung during my bike ride the other day? I went to the doctors but they don't know exactly what happened either. Now I have to use all these different kinds of eye drops and its rather painful. I hope you can figure it out so that I do not have to have a swollen eye for the rest of the week.

This is the end

My ex boyfriend sent me this song oddly enough and I can't stop listening to it. Makes me think about how High School is coming to an end and how I may not see many friends from these past years again. Or that I may not be as close with many. In this way, graduation is "the end".

I’m taken taken all of my time
I’m dodgin' words, but she’s sayin the right lines
She made me made me oh so crazy
But this time I feel like I’m doing something right

It made me sick to think about
Everything you put me through
And how you left without…
Saying goodbye

And if it’s really over now
You can walk away
And that’ll be the last time

And this is the end
Of you and me
Everything I used to be
Back then
It meant something
But your living a lie and you just can’t hide from me

You had me hanging on the last word
And now I’m feeling a little less untrusting
You ha me wishing we were something
But left me here with a whole lot a nothing
Now

This is the end
Of you and me
Everything I used to be
Back then
It meant something
But your living a lie and you just can’t hide from me

Love is a luxury
She said, “Rather be in love than dead”
But now we’re through
Oh god not with her
She’s the type of girl who makes love, hurt

I’m taken taken all of my time
I’m dodgen words, but she’s sayin the right lines
She made me made me oh so crazy
But this time I feel like I’m got it right

This is the end
Of you and me
Everything I used to be
Back then
It meant something
But your living a lie and you just can’t hide from me

I want to be a kid again

10 things I miss about being a kid...

1. Getting a basket of candy on Easter

2. Easter egg hunts

3. Recess, who doesn't love playing games and getting out of class?

4. Lunchables and other gross but fun kid food

5. Sled riding ALL DAY on snow days

6. Kickball. I remember playing this almost everyday in Fifth grade.

7. Going on adventures in my backyard and spending all day exploring. (Without even thinking about being bored!)

8. Boy bands! Nsync, Backstreet Boys.. You know where I'm going.

9. Theme parties. I remember having Halloween parties and such. They were always so fun.

10. Not worrying about clothes, looks and such. Its sad how focused we become on such things. Most people at least.

Pictures I've taken

These are some pictures I've taken various places I've been.

Breckenridge, Colorado

South Carolina

South Carolina

Greenwood Park, Pennsylvania

Mifflin County, Pennsylvania

Kish Park, Pennsylvania

Cape May

Lewistown, Pennsylvania

Georgia