Edge of Desire

Young and full of running,
tell me where is that taking me
just a great figure eight
or a tiny infinity.

Love is really nothing
but a dream that keeps waking me.
For all of my trying
we still end up dying;
how can it be?

Don't say a word; just come over and lie here with me
'cause I'm just about to set fire to everything I see.

I want you so bad I'll go back on the things I believe.
There, I just said it; I'm scared you'll forget about me.

So young and full of running
all the way to the edge of desire.
Steady my breathing, silently screaming
I have to have you now.

Wired and I'm tired;
think I'll sleep in my clothes on the floor.
Or maybe this mattress will spin on its axis
and find me on yours.

Don't say a word;just come over and lie here with me
'cause I'm just about to set fire to everything I see.

I want you so bad I'll go back on the things I believe.
There, I just said it; I'm scared you'll forget about me.

Don't say a word;just come over and lie here with me
'cause I'm just about to set fire to everything I see.

I want you so bad I'll go back on the things I believe.
There, I just said it;I'm scared you'll forget about me.

John Mayer

I went and saw this guy in concert and I just have to say wow! What a great concert. He was even better live than on his cd's and just overall extremely fun to watch. I wish I could go again. It was really that good, I swear.

Not only that, but he is so good looking. But not in your stereotypical hollywood guy way, in a musician has a soul and personality way to him. Oh how I wish i could marry this guy. Not really because he's a little old for me.. but someone like him? Sign me right up.

Influences

Audrey Hepburn, the sound of Imogen Heap music, beautiful clothing-- those are the things that influence me. I stray from the teen norm of drugs and alcohol.

Why? One, they make you look ridiculous. How many times have you seen a drunken mess? Not exactly the most classy behavior. I try my best to be classy, and why put myself down a notch when I can easily avoid alcohol.

The taste. Oh my. There is not much that is more disgusting than the taste of liquor. If it tastes horrible, shouldn't that be a sign that it is probably not good to ingest.

Calories. Alcohol is so high in calories. Especially those fruity drinks that try to disguise the taste of alcohol. I try to keep my calorie intake low so why add this to everything else I eat. Drinking makes you gain weight. End of story. I love clothes so I am not going to get too fat to wear my clothes.

Other drugs. Wow, saying the word drug just sounds dirty. Once again, the whole classy behavior is a major factor. Doing drugs is not classy and never will be. Smoke coming out of your mouth looks gross and totally un-natural.

The smell. It smells awful. I hate being in the house of a smoker. Just being in the house temporarily leaves me feeling dirty. No thank you!

Behavior. A lot of people say that using drugs makes them more fun, more focused and more intelligent. These are all lies. At the sound of this idea, immediately tell the person that they are wrong. So so wrong.

My point.

I am living life happily without this stuff, and so should everyone else. Yeah, I know, very unlikely, but a good thought. There are so many great people out there that are letting drugs and alcohol take away their dreams and potential. Wasted talent is one of life's greatest tragedies so never let the wrong influences take over your life.

More Sunshine

Why

I swear I sometimes like being alone more than I like being with large groups of people.

I just want to sit around, listen to good music and read good books.

I like thinking.

about...

clothes

friends

lyrics

everything

anything.

Basically I like to think about other people. Trying to figure out the intentions of others and their inner emotions. Its pretty time consuming. Just when you think you have someone figured out, guess what, the person does something completely unexpected.

Now you're back to square one. You have no idea why the person did it.

I used to think I wanted to be a Psychiatrist. I love trying to figure out what people are about to do and why they have done certain things. I also really like helping people solve their problems. I wish there was a way to do this without going to college for 3298402398402384082309480 years. Not worth it. I'd rather just be a good friend, so I think I'll stick to that.

Enough ranting...

Savannah

One night Sam and I headed downtown for the night. We had lots of fun and met lots of people like the two guys pictured above with us. Rett and "Street Blood" came up and wanted a picture with us and gave me their numbers so we could all meet up later. It was actually really funny.

My first time getting Chinese! I have to say it was pretty delicious.
Playing in the geysers in Savannah with all the little kids.
Haley and I enjoying shopping downtown in Savannah

The gang hanging out on the sandbar at Tybee Island.
Me, Mikala, and Sam hanging out at the beach.
The gang doing a jump shot.
The sandbar made it possible to stand in the water out by the "Danger of drowning sign" in the ocean. It was pretty crazy.
The gang hanging out on some rocks on the beach.

Today is the day

In about nine hours eight friends and myself are embarking on a road trip to Savannah, Georgia.

High school is over, and summer has begun.

Look back for pictures and stories about the trip.